ponderings, weekly

To infinity and beyond.

These are dark times. So much has been going on – work, projects, preparation for the holidays. But it’s all finally over… well, sort of. 2015 has been one hell of a year. I’ve kept grounded longer than I thought I would, hung around to complete the things that I set myself to but now it has dawn upon me that I’ve been overly ambitious. All that I’ve done in the past months is just pushing myself to the limit, causing myself unnecessary stress and losing a grip on what it really means to live. It’s ok to give up on dreams, it’s not wrong to pursue it but the important thing is that I’ve tried. I haven’t failed, per se, but the light at the end of the tunnel seems real dim. The constant rush to reach the end point is only doing more harm than anything else. As the year is about to come to an end, I’m going to remind myself to be patient; and take it in my stride to suck it up if things don’t turn out the way they should.

Exactly this time last year, I fled from the group of amazing backpackers I was with to Bundi for some quiet time. I hopped on the overnight bus from Pushkar and set off to be away from everything just to collect my thoughts. Strange enough, in my hectic schedule these days, I finally have that personal time to stop and think through this insane year of unhappiness, dissatisfaction and mental turmoil. I guess all I needed this whole time was space; space to breathe.

Life is going to keep throwing challenges, but I will soldier on. Because looking at what I have right now, I’m one hell of a lucky person.



It’s been an intense couple of weeks. My lifestyle has been such an unhealthy routine lately. Going to work hungover twice in a week, skipping meals and eating at unearthly hours because I don’t have the time of the day, getting the bare minimum when it comes to sleep and a well rested mind. Despite juggling with that and working my ass off like a slave, I’m still having a lot of fun. Big love to the people who keep me sane in times of festivity & mental stress ❤

It’s almost the weekends again, and Christmas is coming soon!